I am heartbroken...Huhuhu... Why why why??!! Stupid Americans!  I honestly bet they were deaf last night when both of the finalists of American Idol sang! You could actually hear the difference lah but they still pick the rocker dude... WTH!! Why? Young boy not good looking enough for you red hot blooded American girls ah?!  You rather have a scruffy looking kind of guy rather than a clean shaven innocent guy win American Idol is it? Dumb people...No wonder a lot of them have mental problems...*sarcastically* Hahahaha! Fine...What's done is done... David Cook maybe the winner but he will NEVER have that evergreen voice like David Archuleta...  Cook is only an ENTERTAINER while Archuleta is a real SINGER with a humble attitude.. He'll eventually sell more records than Cook!! Nyahahaha!!! I end my post with a picture of the real idol : David Archuleta!!! ^_^

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From the title, you can already guess what I'm about to write in my blog. My current life in Kuching is not what I have expected it to be... X_X Furthermore, it's been a long time since I've 'touched' my blog...Huhuhu... I'm so sowi blog... *sayangs my blog* Anyway, back to what I was saying...Yea..Life sucks currently..Wanna know why? Let me write down a list to show you..

1. Lonely

2. Depress...

3. My college is a letdown...

Why lonely? I've just realised that the possibility of me getting friends here is close to nil.. I do have acquaintances but if you talk about friends that I want to hang out or joke and laugh with, I don't have any.. I've tried hard tomke friends but maybe I just can't click with them. I don't even have friends to do my assignments with.. No matter how much I try, it just doesn't seem to work... I get depress because of this and sometimes I breakdown. Recently, I even cried for 15 mins in my college toilet and I nearly broke down in class again..(had to cover it up by saying I got flu...How lame...=_=) It's a good thing I manage to talk to Baasan...If I didn't call her, I guess I would have gone wacko by now... I'm starting to hate it here...And I juz pray that time will pass by faster..

My college is a letdown because it is seriously unequipped.What I mean is, it doesn't even have proper labs for the hospitality students..Helloo!! SEGi College is like the only college with the largest campus in Malaysia situated in Damansara and you guys can't even provide basic labs for us all the way in Kuching??! Besides that, none of the clubs in the my college are active except for the tourism club and I've never even heard about the student council...=_= Another thing, our college's elevators have not been fixed since last Jan 2007 and they've never organized any activities for the students to participate in. By the way, thanks for the exercise SEGi..

Now that I've lepaskan my geram, I feel much better...Sigh.... To all my friends, I really really really miss you guys!! *hugs* Baasan!! Thanks for all the hugs and advice that you've given me!! I'll make sure you get a very big ang pow when you're married. XP

I honestly don't understand why I'm acting weirdly nowadays. One moment I can be hyper and funny but the next thing I know, I'll start feeling so moody and quiet. It all started during the end of break time in college this afternoon. My boyfriend who just finished discussing with the lecturer, came up to me and mentioned that he was going to take italian lessons. Instead of telling him that it was good to know that he's interested in learning a new language or saying something positive, I ended up being all moody, pissed and negative things started popping up in my head. And that wasn't the only incident!

Just yesterday around the same time and place again, the same feeling hit me AGAIN but I managed to conceal it properly.(Not like today...=_=) How did it happened? Well...He was talking to 2 female coursemates behind us and let me warn you ah...TALKING only...Haish..I think you guys can basically figure out why I was feeling moody lah on Wednesday....

The point is I really don't know why I have to get all pissed off with those two matters....*thinks* Ok..maybe I was a bit jealous...Wait..Why should I envy him taking another language? Maybe I should think about this later on...Hmm... If it's the second matter then maybe it is kind of 'normal' for me to be envious about but still, it felt quite stupid. =_=... I just realise that it was a waste of my energy to be fussing over 2 female coursemate...Sigh...Kiki Kiki.... I guess I'm having mood swings again...Dang...Mood swings certainly don't make my day.

Oh well...I better take my bath first before I start to stink. XD